Opposites are Absoultes

I told him U dun love me,

We both are complete opposites

How will it work

It will be so difficult

He said everything is in absolutes, Love!!!

If there is dark there will light

If there is night there will be day

If there is matter there is  anti matter

Matter is material

Anti Matter is the God

I am Matter

You are my Anti Matter

We are opposite so we complete each other

Like pieces of blocks only the perfect opposites fit in perfectly

We both together makes us 1 whole.

I was speechless… till today wen I think abt it I am in tears

The guy who said this today is the Man of my life and shall always be…

We are opposite and will remain so

Coz wat I cant he does n wat he cant I do

We fight , we crib, we nag...

But still perfectly fit into each other

Today wen I think if he was ne different dan he is or was or will be

My life wud not be so perfect

Our imperfections wen put together makes us perfect

We dun love each other in spite of thousand flaws… we love each other more for the flaws we have.

I dun have to say wat I feel wen he is around

He doesn't have to ask for nething if I am around

Our eyes, our body our soul says it all

We may have not be able to spent a lot of time wid each other but still it feels we have lived more than a lifetime wid each other...

Experience on 22nd April ' 10

When I got up in the morning I wanted to write a spell for dad. So I finished my regular morning routine and sat for the spell n was hearing few pagan songs… After I finished writing my spell… I thought of meditating and manifesting it. So I started of with one of my meditation music pieces which involves flute music. I sent out my desires and manifested my spell.

I was almost wrapping my meditation with last few breathes and I suddenly saw myself on a small island where I was exactly laying the way I was when I had comforted myself before starting my meditation.

The place looked beautiful and very interesting. My back was resting on a huge tree, soft moist green grass surrounding me… A beautiful tiny bird was sitting on a branch just over my shoulder singing for me and I had a snake around me as my protector…

Soon enough while meditating things started changing… I was no more on grass resting against the magnificent tree I was sitting and meditating on a humongous coiled snake in mid ocean, when suddenly I hear noise of wings flapping… I opened my eyes and as I rose I was wearing a black well fitted trouser with a black shirt and a robe like black jacket with pointed black heels and a cone shaped soft black hat… As I walked all dressed in black my ride started becoming bigger and bigger and till I reached it I realized its my magickal elemental being my red phoenix… I sat on it without thinking where was it taking me.

I was bought near a lake and the lake had sand around the bank I stepped down and started walking… I was bare foot till I reached the lake and was wearing a white dress with a white robe… I stepped in the lake and my robe automatically was taken off and went and settled well on the rocks… I stepped in the water with my white dress and kept walking till the water reached my shoulders. I dipped myself in the water and felt so fresh, so pure, so beautiful and very loved. I enjoyed the feeling and filled it in myself and walked back out… my white robe came and covered me on its own and a tiara from somewhere came along… I started walking ahead and saw an all set altar waiting for me. I sat near the altar and burnt the silver candle in the altar and did a small ritual just to be with the natural elements and feel their power. The music of flute and other instruments started becoming louder as if a signal to move out from there… as I rose and turned I see a ride again waiting for me… I thought wow what's going on how many places m I going to visit and who is this beautiful and huge being… it was a four legged being with wings with a face of a vulture but his neck was very thick…as I walked towards it… it looked at me with so much compassion and love… looking at this amazing and loving being I bowed down to greet him and so did it… I went ahead and sat on him. It gestured towards its neck where a flute was stuck and asked me to play it… I have never played flute in my life… but it was my magickal world I held it and blew once and a beautiful sound came and the magnificent being kicked off… I kept playing and the being took me over serene landscapes, between the mountains and over the sea… as we went above the sea I looked down to see our reflection… I must say it was a kind of experience to ride like that… cant really say if I can call it adventurous because it was much more than that… we both were so well connected that could almost read each others thought… we went down wen we saw children playing on a ground… we sang and played with the kids. I tried rolling the football with the extremely talented kids but again this is my magickal world and we soon took of from there again not knowing where will I be going.

I was taken to a table land and I said bye for now to the magickal being… I started hearing more instruments along with the flute… and the place around me changing, stones started falling from above pillars rising and within seconds I was standing in middle of a tomb. The music started becoming more rhythmic  and I started following the beats. While taking these steps I realized I was in an Indian attire I was wearing a beautifully done lenga (long Indian worked skirt) and choli (a matching short Indian top) a complete Indian look. I was soon dancing and searching from where was the sound of flute coming… I was searching who was playing the flute… I went on dancing around the huge round hall till I dropped. As I fell down I saw a flash of light. And there I saw the only one who could play a flute like this, the only one who could addict anyone, the only one who could be so simple and still so gorgeous, the only one who could make you love and teach how to give unconditional love, the only one who can be so complete, the only one who can make everything right, the only one who teaches you to cry and laugh at the same time, the only one who makes everyone do as his will and the only one who does everything for according the will of those who love him… Yes I saw the divine light, the aura of "Krishna" . I felt so divine, so blessed and so loved.

As I breathed back and closed my eyes I saw myself back on the coiled snake which turned back in the magnificent tree and den I felt my fingers move I was back home with all the beautiful memories and with the divine experience. 

Who Was The One For Me I Din Know

I was High I was Low
Who was the one for me I din know.

I searched for peace in idols, spirit, lonely spaces and in myself,

I searched for peace everywhere,

I called the elf,
Searching for child like peace which is rare.

I helped n healed others to find happiness,
But could not heal the soul within,

The only thing which increased was the loneliness,

And left my true self wrapping in.

I was High I was Low,
Who was the one for me I din know.

The shoulder who supported me,
The hand who wiped all my tears,

The hug which comforted me,

The words which vanished my fears,

My so called best friend,

Who sent me unconditional love,

My so called guide,

Who became like hand and glove,

And when I was High I was Low,
Who was the one for me I din know.

Now when he is away,

I know I found peace with him,

I was no more lonely when I walked his way,

He healed me and filled my life till brim,

What more can I ask,

Life gave me everything as one and all,

I had love as my friend in a mask,

He just waited for me to call,

And when I was High I was Low
Who was the one for me I din know.

Hidden Love

Love is in Air,

I can breathe in it,

Love is in Light,

I can see through to it,

Love is in Water,

I can feel the flow of it,

Love is in earth,

I can hold on to it,

Love is in my Soul,

I am living with it.

All this is special because of him,

He has filled my life with love till brim,

He brings the hidden love alive,

Now, without his  Love I wont be able to survive...

- Rutu

The Boy Who Loves Me!!!

The boy who loves me,

Is really, really mean.
He steals my heart,
With the best smile I have ever seen..
He says I am the most beautiful thing happened to him,
I say if he were not there life would have been so dim.

He makes me laugh n makes me cry,
Thats a fact that I cant deny,
I never want him to stop,
Till the last rain drops...
I never want him to be mute
Coz the best thing about him is
I think he is really very cute.


- Rutu